It's raining or paining...

It’s raining or paining..

After a long wait of hot summer we all wait for the showers of spring called Monsoon. We all love rains, won’t we? The cool breeze of water flowing in the atmosphere around giving us a relaxation from heat n humid weather. But I think this is costing alot to many people living by our side too. We can do anything about climatic conditions. Humans are meant to be adaptive but it gets really tough in case of natural calamities. It’s good that it rains as it improves the ground level of water and enriches the natural sources of drinking water too. But it seems that it is too further improving the levels of rivers around us that they have started rising the danger levels too. There is a news flashing everywhere that rains are playing havoc in so and so town and so many villages are being flown in water…  people lost their house and living and are trying to survive somehow. There is loss of life and property happening all around the nation.

I just saw the news showing that how just one day’s rain has affected the metro cities like Delhi n Mumbai. It’s really disheartening that such big and developed cities are not fully equipped for climatic changes then what is expected out of others. Huh… whose job is to take care of that? Is it government or Municipal Corporation or PWD… well its all of us also responsible in some way or the other? We can’t blame one person or any particular committee for this. Well there has been ignorance on this issue. But is it the first time? No I don’t think so.. It’s been happening all around us but now the situation is getting out of control so we got attentive… Come on this is not done we need to get up and find some solution or at least any alternative to it. There was  a news today that there has been cracks and bumps in roads of greater kailash area which is one of the paush areas of south Delhi and a car is half stuck in that gaddha and beat this that there has been a repairing job done just few weeks ago. This is the condition of roads so how can we feel safe even while walking on such roads anymore.

As we get some kind of problem at home like some leakage or something we get it repaired and take care that it won’t be repeated in future. We should be very cautious in selecting our sources. If we can’t change the way things happen we can atleast try to get some idea and conceptualize how we can turn it and get a batter use out of it. Well the government should also take care of the right maintenance of public property and keep a check on those vendors who are not doing good quality work. Every one of us should be alert of what all is happening around us and voice our thoughts when needed. We should also lend our hands to those who are in need. They don’t need sympathy they need real help and support. So it makes me think that is this rain giving pain to all of us….

Oh god please help humans and humanity….

first bit

                                                                             First bit.

I’ve always been thinking of writing something one or the other but never got the courage to do so. One night on july 27,2010 I thought I should better get and start else I would not be able to do so any other time if not now. At around 1:33 am in my computer I started writing. Finally I got the courage to start today. I am not at sure whether this would keep piling in my computer as a word document file or I’ll ever be able to do anything about it. I really don’t have any experience of writing so I really don’t know what I am doing is sane or just insane.

I‘ve been looking at few of the books that I’ve read so far as to how to make a beginning. But as all other times it’s of no use. I’ve once tried writing the documented news article kind of thing in my college time during the first very year of my graduation in journalism and I got appreciation from my professor as well, but never tried it much later after that. Everyone in my family wanted me to change my subjects as they thought it was of no use but I always wanted this. Then I got an opportunity in doing mime in youth festivals of our college. Then I started concentrating on improving myself in mime. I always believed in giving 100% to whatever I do.

Sometimes I feel that we don’t achieve what we want in our lives completely but then there are certain things that we just wish without even giving it a much assorted thought. And when we get that we are not able to handle the situation. May be that is why people say that we should not wish anything just because the other person is enjoying the pleasures of it. We should make wishes carefully. There have been a few people in my life I can never forget and they contributed in my life in one or the other way. So I thought if I would ever write anything I would start doing it by this.  

First chapter: Kanhaya lal.

I know this guy used to come to our house since my childhood. In fact I heard that he was associated with our family and relatives from a much longer time than I used to think. He belonged to some village and came to urban areas in search of work. He used to come to my grandmother‘s parental house first and used to do some minor helping work for her brothers at their shop. My grandma used to tell me that he has been a lot of help to her as well as he used to come to her house for helping her in little household chores. He has been there on father’s wedding and our births also. I had two brothers out of which one died in his 2^nd very year after death due to blood cancer. He was a great help to my mother as well. After my birth he has always been there to help my mother. I have some pictures where is making me learn how to walk. I was very much attached to him as he always used to come and play with me and used to take me for a ride in his cycle. He was a part time driver also and has almost taught driving to 90% of women in our family and relatives all around. We also used to take him along on our vacations as on a per day driver types. But he was always there to play with me and accompany us. I still remember that on our vacations to Missourie in my childhood dad was always busy playing cards with his group of friends and never accompanied us shopping and exploring. But he always used to be there with us (My mom, my brother and me).

Slowly he also started taking driving tuitions for others out of our family people. But he was always available in our time of need. My mom started having some health issues, she was now a regular patient of headache n pain in her feet. She even faced a few calcium attacks where she would get faint or loose control on one side of her body. But here kanhaya was always there to take care of her. It seemed that he used to be concerned for everyone in the world but no one ever noticed his loneliness. He used to find a family and family members in all of us. But he has been a great sympathizer of our family. My grandma is a typical mother in law as Nirupa Roy of bollywood films. But he was a savior as he used to help mom in certain household jobs. He could anything from driving to cooking to repairing electricity equipments in the house. I never used to miss my chance in sitting at his bicycle and getting rides on it. He was the one to teach me how to drive a scooter and a car. I‘ve been quite a good learner as I learned driving scooter in two days and car in less than a week’s time. But he used to make sure that I get my practice sessions regularly.

Then there was a time when you don’t like anybody intervening in your life and you want to be on your own. Yes the so called adolescence age. He used to come to our house as usual but I somehow started feelin as he was intervening our spaces. I so stopped entertaining him much but his attitude was like as always. But I think he understood the dryness in our behavior so he started keeping himself away but coundnt help visiting us once in a weeks time atleast. May be he used to feel like a family with us. I heard from my mom that he suffered from a broken marriage and mean relatives. His wife went away with some other guy and his bothers always expected monetary benefits from him. He worked for a surd family and used to take care of their daughter’s pick and drop from the school. He used to see us on his way back after picking her from the school. Her name was Sonia. We soon became friends as he used to visit us for some time.

There was this time when my dad was looking for a bride for brother. He came one day saying that he is not feeling well and mom told him to get a medical checkup done as he was looking very week and exhausted. On the other side we soon found a suitable match and the roka was decided. Kanhaya who taught us how to walk always wanted to see us getting married couldn’t see his wish came true. We  came to know that he is suffering from jaundice and he was hospitalized. We went to see him and he had been given this glucose drip by the doctor. We told him about the good news, he was overjoyed with this news and was very excited to get well soon and take the charge of the ceremonies. We also wanted him to get well soon. Doctor told us that his jaundice has crossed the normal stage and his chances of getting better are not very good anymore. We told the doctor that we will arrange money for his treatment but nothing did help. All the people whom he has served all his life never even cared and looked back where he was. It was really disappointing. Mom and my aunt were the last person in our family to see him last. I was busy with my school so couldn’t get to see him last time which I always regret.  Nobody even cared to see him and get his treatment done or even be by his side in his last times. We got this news few days before my brother’s roka ceremony that he was no more. And dad also told that he had some life insurance policies and lot of saved money around sixty thousand or so which they came to know after his death. The money he has been saving for his tough days actually didn’t help, it made of no use to him. His relatives who never cared for him when he was alive came to take his dead body and claim the money when they got to know. I still miss him sometimes for his love and care that he used to shower upon us. I don’t know what I’ve learnt by this as he has been taking care of everyone in his surroundings but no one came to his help in his last time. May be this is life and it goes on and on. People come and go but life still goes on. As Mr. Raj kapoor said ”yeh duniya ik circus hai mere bhai yahan koi kisi ka nahin…..”